Thoughts · for · a · Lifetime

"Yo, my mobile home-boys, what's trippin' in the wood?"

Welcome to Summer Solstice...and my new journal.  My old journal has been removed due to unfortunate circumstances that I'd rather not discuss.  If I've added you as a friend, welcome back and I'll try to update as often as I'm able.

This is the longest day of our calendar year, time best spent in preparation for the coming of shorter days.  
I've not been too religious in the past year, more eager to find a system of belief and practice that works for me.  I took a philosophy course to find this answer, but have only succeeded in creating more questions.  

What I DO believe is important is to recognize points in our life where changes occur, have to occur.  It is equally meaningful to synchronize these changes with a significant change in the world surrounding us, as it often gives us pause and more purpose.  In the past few months, recitals have been completed, relationships and friendships alike have reached new levels or come to bitter conclusions, new hobbies and ideas have been discovered...the truth is that the world around us is changing, as are we, and in every moment we are alive, we are changing, adapting, becoming more or less of ourselves- but if you believe as I do that you move more toward yourself and less towards what others think and believe, then it is an invigorating thing to look forward to.

As such, I recognize that every morning I wake up and realize that I am choosing who I will be today, in this moment.  I stir from my bed and recognize what I have each morning- a wonderful boyfriend, a roof over my head, a world to explore, talents of my own.  I can choose to accept these things or disassociate from these things at any moment, but each moment I choose, I shape my present.  My actions and deeds shape who I am to others, but to me, they are the actions and deeds that come as the result of who I am, not the causative agent.  

In short, I write here because I am a writing person, and my action in beginning a new journal may suggest to you any number of ideas, positive or negative...but what matters here is simply that I love to write and to share my experiences with others.  And this is all that need be thought of.  

Today, in honor of Summer Solstice, I recognize that in myself which I have discovered thus far, and what may change.  And it is my resolution that I embrace who I am in each moment, knowing that I may make different choices the next day that will affect my mood, future, etc.  But the choices are endless...the magick of the world is overwhelming...enjoying it is indeed all that I can do.

So today I thank the friends I have who have stuck by me, the unconditional love from my devoted future fiancee Kyle, the support of my family, and myself for the journeys I've enjoyed and not enjoyed thus far.  

Oh yeah, and I should probably practice more...and write an A paper for philosophy...and finish crafting my UUMH Service for August 10th.
But at least that will happen because I choose to make it happen.
Good times.

And Audrey, I'm sorry about missing out on our get-together today.  We'll reschedule.  Thanks for being so understanding.